Guess what? You get here tomorrow morning!

Since you are still breech (butt first) we are scheduled for a c-section tomorrow morning at 7:30am. It's a Monday morning, Veteran's Day. Your dad and I have to be at the hospital at 6am, which is really early, but I don't think I will be getting much sleep tonight, so it's probably for the best that we have to get there early. The doctor says it will be a fairly quick procedure, we should be able to meet you by 8am if all goes according to the schedule.

I am completely overwhelmed with emotion right now. The nerves got the best of me last night and I was hardly able to get any sleep, I kept thinking I was going into labor. I was having stomach pains and back pains and kept thinking my water broke. I slept a little and when I woke up this morning, all was normal.

Dad and I spent the day getting all the last minute stuff ready to go for tomorrow. We are so close to the hospital that its super easy for dad to run home for anything I may forget, but I would rather be prepared. I have your bag ready for you and a bag ready for me, I am hoping we are all set.

Once we got most things done around the house, we went to Okan and Maggie's (friends of ours from college) house warming party, to help get our minds off things (well mostly my mind), which worked.

We are home now and I just finished eating dinner as I sit here writing this last post before your welcome into this world.

I can't possibly explain what I am feeling right now, I am trying to stay calm on the outside, but on the inside I am a complete mess. I am excited to meet you, SOO excited! But I am also nervous and scared. Since I have never been a mom before, and I have never really gotten major surgery before, I am not sure what tomorrow will bring. I am hoping these emotions are normal for most first time parents, but I can't help but feel a little bad for not being ALL excited and NONE scared.

Tomorrow is going to be the best day of my life I am sure of that, but tomorrow is also the day that the life that I have known for the last 31 years changes forever.

None of this is supposed to be bad, I just wanted to try and get out some of what I am feeling like right now on "paper"

I look forward to meeting you tomorrow morning baby girl!