Well I guess this is the beginning.  It took me a full 24 hours before I could sit down and really tell you all about how it all went down.

I fell in love with your mother almost 8 years ago and after getting married last Nov. 5th we knew that it would not be long before we began a family...we just didn't know it would be this soon.

After getting sick on Monday night and waking up Tuesday morning, mom just didn't "feel right" all day.  As her workday came to a close we headed to the gym and stopped by Target on the way home to buy a pregnancy test.  Neither of us admitted that we thought it would turn out to be positive so we kept telling each other this was "just to make sure."  I think deep down I knew how it was all going to turn out.  And although she didn't say it directly, I think she felt the same way.

We walked outside on the back balcony where there was better light and reread the directions over and over just to make sure we had it right..."One line = not pregnant, Two lines = pregnant."  We had waited the full ten minutes before slowly revealing the results.

It took less than a second, but my entire life flashed before my eyes.  We said nothing.  Your mother cried.  I just stared.  Neither of us knew what to say.  We got married because we wanted to finally start a family and always said "we weren't trying, but if something happens, something happens."  Well now that "something" had happened I don't think we knew how to comprehend it.

I'll be honest with you.  Neither of us were sad, but I can't exactly say we were happy.  We were simply...confused.  24 hours prior niether of us could have possibly imagined we were about to begin the road to having a family.  A baby on its way, that by our calculations actually had begun a month earlier on February 20, 2012.

You began your journey throughout this crazy world on a random Monday morning during one of the warmest February's the national's capital had ever experienced.  A journey that I am so excited to enjoy with you for as long as I possibly can.  I can't wait to teach you everything I have learned while at the same time you probably teach me almost as much.  There will be ups and there will be downs.  Times of happiness and times of sorrow.  But through it all I want you to understand that I will always love you as much as my mom and dad have always loved me.  I just hope I can do half as good of a job as they have done raising you and being there for you.

I can only type that now because at I have had time to reflect and let the reality actually hit me.  After we found out, we quickly changed and went for a walk to the Reston Town Center just for some fresh air and a chance to let mom's eyes dry out from all of the tears.  We ended up at a newer restaurant that we had not been to (we don't normally go out to eat much) named Vapiano's.

With your mom eating a Margahrita Pizza and me having a Calzone we began asking so many questions.  What do we do now? When do we tell our parent's? Has your mom been eating and drinking properly for the last month and, if not, how will that affect you as you began to grow?  We didn't have a single answer.  For the first time in my life, I didn't even pretend like I knew what the answer was.  But as we walked back home, the unknowing feeling turned into a feeling of joy.  A smile.

Over the next 24 hours we both spent quite a bit of time on the Internet asking it questions and looking for answers about how do we do "this." Like everyone else in the history of mankind, I'm sure we'll figure it out one way or the other, but right now it seems like A LOT.  And I'm sure it is, but in the end it is all going to be worth it.

We have our first appointment with the doctor on Friday afternoon.  Neither of us know how long we can hold out telling our parent's (your grandparent's), but we know we have to wait until at least then to make sure everything is going ok.  I'll keep you up to date as much as I can whether you like it or not.  Maybe I'm doing this for me as much as I am for you I guess, but always know that anything I do, it will always be because I already and always will love you.